I can't help it but write my thoughts down by hand, which is why I have been away from blogging for over a year. Besides, not that I was ever dedicated to it before but rather found it as a way of connecting my thoughts and opinions, advices and even life stories that lead you, my reader, to be skimming through this post right now. But I shall not let my thoughts to take me away on a tangent.
What did inspire me to share this post with you tonight, you might ask yourselves. Well, my dear reader, why don't you put a kettle on and get yourself comfortable.
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Here I am, back to my family's nest with no family. Ironic, huh? Whilst the rest of my kin gathered themselves in the far northern land of Russia for a family reunion, I, without a doubt declined their invitation in support of binge drinking as I know thus far won't be frowned upon. Currently, I have tucked myself into bed with some snacks and a hot beverage placed to my left on the bedside table. One minute I get myself set for bed, the next my mind is already jammed with a list of 'chores to complete' for tomorrow's day aka the perks of adulthood. Don't get me wrong, staying or living alone has its convenient moments too. For instance you could express the moments of solitude through an aesthetic appreciation of Wes Anderson's movies all day long without unnecessary inputs from the ones who surround you every now and then. I enjoy my own company and do I rarely appreciate getting distracted from what I am doing. Did it sound convenient enough?
Moving swiftly from one thought onto the other, I picture in front of me a perfect scenario of my life in 5 years time. Would I be so lucky to once again catch myself thinking of how much I hate to handle chores for a three bedroom apartment? Would I be able to afford the lifestyle my parents have been creating for me for as long as I can remember? Would I get to walk in Carrie Bradshaw shoes (Manolo's iconically) literally as well as metaphorically? To enjoy and get carried away with the things I call my guilty pleasures such as writing and film production. To create and inspire.
My daydreaming has escalated to so many rhetorical questions that I couldn't bring myself to brush off. After this post goes live, I will return to writing the list of my errands and set my alarm for the morning. But tonight, I am still waiting for a moment when there are no thoughts to disturb my bed time peace, getting back to watching Fantastic Mr. Fox.
Peace and Love,
Forever yours
-S
